Too Much Water

I’m insecure again
Don’t want to leave my bed
Don’t believe in myself
Don’t even trust my friends
Don’t know my purpose
Tired of living on earth
I’m so insecure again
Don’t want to leave my bed

What has come over me
This happens periodically
But I’m so tired this time
Ego is fighting my higher side

Hate to go out in public
Is it my flaws that they notice?
Tired of the phony smile on my face
Tired of the rapes
Tired of having to be high
To enjoy anything in my life.
Tired of reading about wars
And asking what for
Tired of wishing people
would help save the world
But too preoccupied with myself
to do much more

What has come over me
This happens periodically
But I’m so tired this time
Ego is fighting my higher side

What has come over me
Why is life fucking with me
But I’m too tired of this karmic
Eternal internal fight

Sometimes I think I enjoy the pain

Get the enemies out.
Get them out of here.
Discipline my mind.
Discipline my mind

Tired of fighting. Tired of fighting
I surrender. You win.
Put me back together again
Put me back together again
I’ll trust you again